Thank you Lord for all that you are to me. When I look back, its only been blessings all throughout. Even in my most difficult and trying times, your hands were always there guiding me, leading me on. When I place my worries in your hands, I know there's nothing I should fear. Lord, help my unbelief, I do slip at times. Thankyou so much for being my Father in heaven and being my best friend and listening to me always. Your such an amazing Father. I love you and today, I was telling Sarita about that day back in 2005 when I really saw how You use people to give the things I desire.
Bed ridden and craving for some Kerala food. Cook knows only Tamil cooking and I was fed up of that but still, I cannot complain coz atleast somebody was cooking for me. When I was unloveable, you loved me, Lord...Thankyou sooooo much. When noone bothered to visit me or bring me homecooked meals, you saw me Lord... I just don't know how to Thankyou Jesus. Thankyou so much for that day... I still remember and I still feel your presence and your love when I think of that day.
It was like any other day.. My helper helped with the bed pan, brushed my teeth, gave me sponge bath and went to cook for me. She cooks good food but it could be the pregnancy hormones, all I wanted was Kerala food. She just didnt know to cook that. And Doc had advised against outside food, so no chance of ordering in from a Kerala restaurant also. That day just before 12 noon, I get a call from my one time teacher- Padma teacher. She has a boutique in Anna Nagar and is a very busy lady. She asked me if I had lunch and I said, No...asked me How I was...and as we were talking, I heard the doorbell. My helper went and opened the door and Lo...there is Padma teacher with a big pack. She brought home made theeyal, Home made Kachiya mor, Home made prawns roast.... o wow... and all of that tasted just outta the world. (Padma Teacher is one of the best cooks I know on planet earth). She is a vegetarian herself but the prawns she brought that day.... well, Ive never EVER tasted such delicious outta the world preparation even from the best non veg chef in the whole wide world. She sat by my bedside. My plate was on my chest, and I was eating... she made sure I ate well and then she had to leave. See, God cannot come down personally and serve me a meal that I desire...so He uses people to give what I need. On one side, the world will be putting you down, but still if you look carefully, even in the midst of gloom, there is a ray of hope somewhere. People I expected were not there for me at that time but that is not the point...really!!! God taught me that all that matters is GOD AND GOD ALONE.... He will NEVER let me down. When He gives, it is abundant and free flowing... but when the world gives, it is limited and there is a price tag. Never go after the world and never expect from people coz it will only bring you down. But Jesus, HE WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU.
Bed ridden and craving for some Kerala food. Cook knows only Tamil cooking and I was fed up of that but still, I cannot complain coz atleast somebody was cooking for me. When I was unloveable, you loved me, Lord...Thankyou sooooo much. When noone bothered to visit me or bring me homecooked meals, you saw me Lord... I just don't know how to Thankyou Jesus. Thankyou so much for that day... I still remember and I still feel your presence and your love when I think of that day.
It was like any other day.. My helper helped with the bed pan, brushed my teeth, gave me sponge bath and went to cook for me. She cooks good food but it could be the pregnancy hormones, all I wanted was Kerala food. She just didnt know to cook that. And Doc had advised against outside food, so no chance of ordering in from a Kerala restaurant also. That day just before 12 noon, I get a call from my one time teacher- Padma teacher. She has a boutique in Anna Nagar and is a very busy lady. She asked me if I had lunch and I said, No...asked me How I was...and as we were talking, I heard the doorbell. My helper went and opened the door and Lo...there is Padma teacher with a big pack. She brought home made theeyal, Home made Kachiya mor, Home made prawns roast.... o wow... and all of that tasted just outta the world. (Padma Teacher is one of the best cooks I know on planet earth). She is a vegetarian herself but the prawns she brought that day.... well, Ive never EVER tasted such delicious outta the world preparation even from the best non veg chef in the whole wide world. She sat by my bedside. My plate was on my chest, and I was eating... she made sure I ate well and then she had to leave. See, God cannot come down personally and serve me a meal that I desire...so He uses people to give what I need. On one side, the world will be putting you down, but still if you look carefully, even in the midst of gloom, there is a ray of hope somewhere. People I expected were not there for me at that time but that is not the point...really!!! God taught me that all that matters is GOD AND GOD ALONE.... He will NEVER let me down. When He gives, it is abundant and free flowing... but when the world gives, it is limited and there is a price tag. Never go after the world and never expect from people coz it will only bring you down. But Jesus, HE WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU.
I can relate so well to this. I too had a diffucult pregnancy with bedrest. I realised exactly what you have. That things may not happen as you expect, but things will be taken care of, if not by one you desire, then by someone else. You just need to hold on to faith. thank you for writing this. You have a flair for writing and appreciating what you have.
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Thanku so much for taking the time and going through this. I went through ur blog too yesterday and I was too saddened by what u had written that I cudnt even comment. I sure understand u, coz I too lost a baby...my first one. But now God has blessed me so much...I have a boy and a girl, really wonderful kids, surely the best gifts from God. So keep the faith... keep in touch. :)
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